In this world of memories, there is no need for strangers

Monday, April 30, 2007

i just got a feedback that whenever a bitch abt a certain person, i get very irritating. i never realised that. oh well, i shall refrain from bitching about that certain someone.

tomorrow's Labour Day. i wonder what Labour Day really means. oh well, tomorrow don't seem like a public holiday to me in any way. my family members will still be working. i will still be studying, so will my bro, i guess. so, where's the holiday? unless i have misunderstood the meaning of 'holiday' all this time?

i just realised that it has been a long time since my whole family has sat down together and eat a dinner. oh well, i guess everyone's pretty busy with all sorts of shift work and CCA committments. it's alright, a birthday is coming and i am very positive that we will all sit together for dinner. =]

someone once asked me, is family or friends more important to you? i realised family is more important to me. i seek acceptance from my family more than i seek acceptance from my friends. my rationale is that if you want to be my friend, you have to accept me for who i am in the first place. if you do not like me for who i am, are you still a friend? no. but family, it's different. more often than not, we have to compromise, try not to step on each other's toes, try not to invade each other's privacy, be mindful of each other's feelings and be aware of the undercurrent of emotions.

a new month is starting. i hope it will be better than the previous one.

so much emotions flowing through me. so many rainy days. just as many melancholy days for me. so much small and pointless disappointments that gets to me when it shouldn't. so much random thoughts on massacres in public places and life. too much time to think.

i will be alright, i think.

-aeRieL-

aeRieL fell to the samurai's sword @ 11:43 PM

Friday, April 27, 2007

april is cmg to an end. huzzah! no more being poor! i'm going to get my pocket money after forking out $80 myself for the tuition. at least the tuition is worth the money. =] mr lee rocks!! =]

some good news for myself.. like FINALLY getting a bronze for napfa, running 2.4km in 14.55min, finally seeing a glimmer of hope for econs, finally passing gp compo and compre this year, and the list goes on. as i said, it's good news for myself. small and simple things in life that cheer me up. esp with a lot of bitchy fucked up ppl around who always 'make' my day. i've been pms-ing very often recently. but with huiqi and jack, i seem to be able to control my emotions better. i can talk about my grievances and i will feel less burdened. thank god for them.

long weekend ahead. no tuition, only study sessions. i should be able to complete complex tutorial and fnish the vectors summary. i believe i have not mentioned aiping before. she's an angel. working so hard to make sure we know our (yujia and i) math, trying her very best to do make up lessons and all. thank you, aiping. =]

so many things on my mind nowadays. but that's alright. i believe i will sort it out eventually. in the mean time, stay out of my way if u dont want to be at the receiving end of my stares and curses. i'm not good at making friends, but i can make enemies easily. quite an amazing talent if it was a positive quality. too bad it is not.

hmm ya. more about my tuition. it's near bugis. i've got a cool teacher who "don't believe in the institution of marriage". he teaches a lot more than the econs teacher in school can ever teach in the same 2 hours. he teaches us essay writing skills. basically, things that the school never taught us. and the teaching style is good. examples, interactive, interesting. what more can one ask for?

tests are cmg up. everyone must do well. it's too near to the a levels to fail. gambatte.

-aeRieL-

aeRieL fell to the samurai's sword @ 11:23 PM

Tuesday, April 17, 2007

trying to blog abt the things happening the last few days.

PW results. everyone is so hard on themselves. ppl from NYJC, MJC, everywhere. me, i'm perfectly fine with my results. no qualms abt it. and just in case you wanna noe, i've got a B.

AJ Choir concert at the esplanade. damn good. =] love all the jap anime songs. i think i prefer an all guys choir. they sounded so manly! ok, i cant stand sopranos(how do u spell that?). too high. gets on my nerve sometimes. guys voices are more soothing, has a calming effect. =] saw a lot of ppl there. love the gobi desert song. =] damn nice and got the feel. dunno how to say. love the purple 'fish' a lot. =]

today. went out with some classmates for the first time this year after sch. have been such a guai kid this year that i go home everyday after sch. suddenly felt so tired of it all and decided to go chill out before going home, plus buy the syrup and such in preparation for Family Day.
anyone interested to come to AJC Family Day, let me know. [i dun gain from this publicity]

Details of the Family Day:
- Saturday, 21 April 2007
- i guess it's from 10am - 1pm
- coupons at $10 (can be bought on the day itself)
- my class will be selling waffles
- there will be food and games
- anyone(from all walks of life) is welcomed

Venue of AJC:
- nearest MRT: Yio Chu Kang MRT station (sch is 5-10 min walk away only)
- bus services: 86, 162, 851, 852, 853, 45, 13

ya, to all my frens living in the east, i know AJC is far. haha. it's almost north of signapore. haha.

-aeRieL-

aeRieL fell to the samurai's sword @ 10:25 PM

Wednesday, April 11, 2007

finally ended the NWSP presentation today. *BIG SMILE* the judges were ok, i guess. just that they asked a lot of questions and like to talk among themselves. is this the working world?

anyway, i'm soooooo glad it's over. *BIG GRIN* thanks to FARHANA for co-ordinating ALL the slides. to WULIN and HANG and myself for having completed the presentation. with all the [-.-]"' antics.. i had to suppress my laughter. not forgetting all the stress i felt before the presentation. was so stressed i became depressed. luckily LAYKUAN's mp3 saved me. with Shin's 死了都要爱 song. =] don't ask me why, it just pulled me out of my depression. my love for Shin has grown by leaps and bounds. haha. and i must say that the apple strudel, egg mayo sandwich and chocolate muffins from Good News Cafe were great.. haha.

moving on to another matter altogether. i was packing my drawer just now and i found some old letters that i wrote when i was in PRIMARY school. u know, those short letters that we exchange with each other about life and school. i supposed it was a form of encouragement too. but anyway, i kept a few of those meaningful or pretty personal ones. look what I found in that stash:

Dear Wan Ding,

Why you admire ******? I hate him! He very idiotic. And yet people know I hate him so much, that Gui Wen and Rachel still say that I'm his wife?! And did you saw me hit ****** at the airport during the Maths Trail? Yet, he's still laughing. I don't think that your taste is so poor that you choose ******! Please consider carefully!

never you mind who ****** is. that's not the point. the point is, it brings back so much memories, doesnt it? all the stupid things we say and did in primary school days. it's kinda funny now that u think back and saw how easily you trusted and how easy you are in confiding your "deepest darkest" secret at that time, which is, WHO IS YOUR CRUSH... it's quite different now, with the emphasis on studies, not "crushes". but then again, we don't call them "crushes" anymore, do we? they are now called "eye candies". haha.

now, we have 'hardened'. we dont trust easily no more. we don't confide so easily no more. uh uh. no such things now. ever thought why? for me, it's too many bad experiences and betrayals. what about you?

guess what? it just occured to me the content of this entry and my blogskin don't match. haha.

-aeRieL-

aeRieL fell to the samurai's sword @ 11:06 PM

Monday, April 09, 2007

fuck.
e learning sucks.
fuck.
e learning really sucks.
who the fuck came up with this brillant idea?
fuck.

-aeRieL-

aeRieL fell to the samurai's sword @ 4:21 PM

Friday, April 06, 2007

it's been quite a while since i last published an entry. there's been nothing to talk about anyway. just school and home. been pretty anti-social this past weeks. i just dont find the energy to go out, socialise, have fun anymore. it's too tiring.

anyway. went to SeaAsia 2007 maritime Youth Day on 4 April. must say that it's has made me open up to the option of joining a sea-based occupation instead of the shore-based ones. just, maybe, i'll go. we'll see how it goes. anyway, for the batch that i went to, there was only one other JC --- ACJC. and the rest were secondary school kids. from nan chiau, yu hua and some other lame secondary school. they were rowdy, uncontrolled, rude, lacked basic courtesy and obviously immature. there was the vessel ride on Penguin 3. it's too bad that i did not bring my camera onto the deck. the view was spectacular. the pier, Marina South pier, has a beautiful manicured landscape at the 3rd storey. and the clouds were so pretty. gave me the peaceful feeling.

not forgetting the friends i made because if this trip, Yan Ting and Toylyn. they were so high, so energetic. i had an enjoyable time with them too. =]

i'm really low on energy. just want to thank my dear dear friends who have seen me so down and tried to cheer me up. trust me, u guys did a great job. i cheered up when you guys were by my side. it's not your fault that i lapse back into the low energy phase again. i guess stress is draining me. i've seen the a levels exams date and i'm starting to fall into depression again. who would have known that now, i wish frevently for time to stop. there just isnt enough time to finish my revision...

-aeRieL-

aeRieL fell to the samurai's sword @ 9:07 AM

I want
FOOD
SLEEP
and NO WORK

I wish for alot of things
I just can't be bothered to work for them

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