sometimes, when u feel that u have changed in a positive way, ie, from a introvert to a slightly more open person, ppl may feel differently.. like, maybe, ppl think that that is not the only change that u have made. i dunno how much i have changed cos i havent met up with any old frens this year except for gelina.. but i'm always myself ard gelina, so i dun seem different to her. i wonder how much i have changed, really.. and whether it is good or bad..

speaking of frens. i realised the other day that i do not have any connection with my past life, ie, primary or secondary school life in AJ except for Carl and a library senior from sec sch who seems determined to act blur and not noe me. imagine, singapore, such a small country and i have no connection to my past except 2 ppl. isnt it so amazing. and this experience of not knowing anyone and having to start making frens from scratch has really made me grow up even more.

and i dun understand one thing. why do ppl want to claim wad is not theirs from the beginning to be theirs? i am of cos talking abt the audi seats during econs lecture. it is not as if this is week one of a new term when everyone is still trying to adapt. it is already week 10, for god's sake and u guys still dunno where to sit?! u guys are obviously trying to get us or urselves into trouble only. aren't u tired of sitting at our seats every econs lecture and us asking u guys to move so that we can take back wad is rightfully ours? even if u are not, i am.

and to address hui jie's statement. a lot of ppl i hang out with want kids. ya. but IMO, i think that kids are cute as long as they do not open their mouth and cry. or scream that ear piercing scream that get me so irritated that i feel like slapping the kid. i can think of more examples of what i dun like abt kids den what i like abt kids. for example, kids cant talk, so i cant communicate with them. i find this frustrating but many find it endearing. *shrugs* kids are noisy, so me being someone who like peace, cant stand them. but ppl think that making noise for kids are just part of growing up. IF a baby can be born with a 20 year old maturity, i would LOVE to have a baby. but until that happens, kids better stay FAR FAR away from me.

holidays are coming soon. but there's geog remedial which i dun mind, chinese remedial which i am kinda reluctant to go for but wad choice have i got, econs remedial which is as good as sleeping time, PW which is ok compared to the others and PE remedial which i MIND. A LOT A LOT. on top of all these, i have to find time to revise my chem, econs, geog, math, GP and chinese for CT, clean up my room which is depressingly untidy, pray hard for the price of 3250 to drop DRASTICALLY and to exercise (read: swim, NOT JOG OR RUN). is there enough time? is this a case of time management (again)?

and Choon Hang, is this sentence "I went in search of a new land. I got there, and it was really hostile/foreign etc etc." refering to AJ? i think AJ is a place not to be describe as 'hostile'. this is just my opinion. anyway, correct me if i am wrong abt saying that sentence refer to AJ.

-aeRieL-

aeRieL fell to the samurai's sword @ 2:21 PM